SSM

SSM; Special Study Module is probably the most hated posting for me, second to Plastic Surgery. It's because I really, really, really hate doing research. It is tedious, boring and I don't seem to grasp the concept of it (yet). Why, oh why? 

Oh BTW, we have had this module before (during my second year of studies). Last time, we were lucky enough to actually do the research in a group of 4. But now, it is an individual research! How am I supposed to survive this? Is this the apocalypse the Mayans were talking about? Urghh so annoying T.T 

Also, we are no longer allowed to include the RCMP students as our sample. OH EM GEE. Why can't they decide this a little bit earlier and inform us before Phase 3B started? Didn't they know that there might be students who are 'hardworking' enough to actually start their research way before the SSM itself started? WHY DIDN'T THEY THINK OF IT! T____T

So, yes. I am angry.

What are the odds?

Greetings, alien! :)

Adoyai. I received a pretty shocking news just recently (well, a month ago, to be exact. Not THAT recent anyways). My bestie from high school called me just to ask whether or not my crush from high school is studying at my uni. And I was like, 'YO MAMA! Of course nawt! I would have let ya know yeaaaars ago if he really was in my college.'

But then she said, "Oh no no no. He just tweeted, saying 'Am currently studying at Uni bla bla bla bla'. He is, Wani!".

Silence greeted her statement. *Kreet kreet* What the fish is he doing here, man? Isn't he supposed to be somewhere abroad? Why must he transfer back to Malaysia? And of all many medical schools in Malaysia, why must he transfer to mine? Its not like I'm panicking because I still have a thing for him. Its just that, mmmm, its just that, mmmm, I just don't like the idea of studying at the same place with him anymore. Because it will remind me of my school years. I was  chubby and dark. And I had pimples. I was ugly :(

From that day onwards, I lingered at the college foyer more often than I usually did. I borrowed books from the college library twice in a week (hoping that I'll bump into him in the library). I ate at the college cafe during lunch hour almost everyday. Everywhere I went, I would be quietly looking for him. Two weeks passed me by, but still no sign of him. Not at all. 

I was relieved, but at the same time disappointed. Funny, right? But one day when I was on my way back from the hospital to my car, I spotted someone so familiar. It was him! He was walking by the roadside towards the ACC. I stopped, and stared. My gaze followed him. (I think I was jaw dropped at that time). Haha. He walking alone in a very handsome purple striped T-shirt. And he was wearing a sling bag like he used to 5 years ago. 

Yes, he is here. He is in my college. I have to embrace it. 

New spirit for the new phase!

Phase 2 is a real deal. Hella tough and challenging, yet interesting! I've got to finally learn the clinical stuff (after two long agonizing years full with memorizing facts and facts and facts alone). Its not about putting on your white coat and walking in it with such poise and pride all around the hospital (Oh, I forgot to mention the dangling-stethoscope part). Haha. No. Its actually about the curiosity that will envelope you before the doctor comes and starts the lecture. Lub dub lub dub. You'll be wondering what the hell you're gonna see/learn today. Labor case perhaps? (I cant wait to see it live actually). Plus, this is the time where you'll get the chance to be scolded by the doctor in front of everyone (patients, nurses, your group mates, hospital staff and patients' relatives). Ugh if only I don't have class at 8 am tomorrow, I'd definitely go on and on about this just so you'll know what it really is about. Anyhoo I bet you can always google it up. LOLs.

Miserable me

I feel so sorry; for being such a burden for you. 

I feel so guilty; for not being up to your expectation.

I know I don't deserve any of these.

But I was too caught up with the other things,

I got astray and now am navigating myself to the right path.

Promise you, I will be better.

Promise you, I will not fail you.

Promise you, I will keep these promises.

I love you ayah, mama and all siblings!

BUSY LIKE HELL. Tipu je!

Hey, long time no see! Ive been really busy lately. Ive even terminated my Facebook account as I found it really distracting *finally* Plus ma mother told me over the phone this evening that she thinks I go online too often. *Again, the benefit of having a cyber mom; she will always observe your cyber life and remind you if you seem to be addicted to it. Always* lols.

Well, final exams are just in a month. Ok, a month and a half. Pfft, what difference does it make? =X

Gotta admit that I have abandoned my studies for so long and now there is nothing i can do about it but to start doing some revision. Need not elaborate it, I suppose. *Sighs* Anyhoo you people pray for me, will you? 

May WaniSaadon and her classmates pass their second year final exam with flying colours... Amiiiiiiin ;)

Oh ya, we have found a new house! It is in Ipoh Jaya; 15 minutes driving distance from our College. And if I'm not mistaken, there are 5 traffic lights and 1 roundabout  along the way. It is cheap (and thanks mother, now I cant stop thinking what if my room is AWFULLY humid as the house is PROBABLY a low cost one.. tsk tsk) =.=" 

Its a double-storey house (probably a low cost one, according to my mother. Huwaaaaaaa!!), with 3 upstairs bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. The best part of it is that the living hall is really spacious! Andand, so is the kitchen! The rental is quite cheap (maybe thats why my mother claimed it as a low cost house. grrr~); its just for RM360 monthly. I hope this is the best for us. And I pray to Allah that He will protect us and the house 24/7. Amiiiiiin :))

Enough with the good news, now let's get back to the busy life of mine. Apart from the final exams, Im also now busy with the moving-out thingy. We have to clean (as in mop and sweep) the whole house and then start moving in our stuff. Oh, wrong consequences! We have to pack our stuff, clean the new house and move in our stuff! And we have to start survey-ing for a cheap washing machine, go to TM main centre (we want to bring along our internet wireless connection), find a place which provides lorry-renting service (together with the manpower service), yada yada yada~~ 

I really hope that my parents will come down to Ipoh this February 1st.. HUwaaaaaaa~!!! 

me, myself and time

Okay, 2 down.. I more to go, which is OSPE..... hurhhhhh. I think i totally screwed my EMQ today. But never mind, I still have time to fix it. So, whatever happens, I won't sleep tonight until I finish my revision. And I mean it. Seriously. Coz tomorrow, I can sleep the whole day, from 2pm to 6 pm. And continue after 8 until the next break of dawn. Yeah.. 


After I got back from college this afternoon, I youtube-d Sonny with a Chance Season 2 Episode 3 and 4. In the  4th episode, Demi sang her brand new song and I think I am in love with it! It's about someone, who has just entered a new phase in her life (phase that she wanted for so long and knew perfectly well that its exactly where she belongs to). So here I am, presenting to you "Me, Myself and Time", by Demi Lovato!

I can make the rain stop if I wanna, 

just like my attitude

I can take my laptop record a snapshot,

and change your point of view

I just entered this brand new world

And I'm so open heart-e-ed

I know I've got a long way to go but

I'm just getting started

I'm over my head, and I know it, I know

I'm doing my best, not to show, to show it

Whatever it takes to be what I was meant to be, I'm gonna try

Cause I'm living the dream, And I know it, I know it.

I'm trying my best, not to blow it, to blow it

And I know everything everything will be fine

With me, myself and time.


I go where life takes me, but someday it makes me want to change my direction
Sometimes it gets lonely, but I know that its only a matter of my perception

I just entered this brand new world

And I'm so open heart-e-ed

I know I've got a long way to go but

I'm just getting started

I'm over my head, and I know it, I know

I'm doing my best, not to show, to show it

Whatever it takes to be what I was meant to be, I'm gonna try

Cause I'm living the dream, And I know it, I know it.

I'm trying my best, not to blow it, to blow it

And I know everything will be fine

With me, myself and time.

And baby there is nothing like this moment

To just be real and let the truth be spoken

Whatever's broke I can make it unbroken

Turn the lead in my hand and the stars stand golden

Just try more love, if I just try more love then I'll find

Myself and time.


I'm over my head, and I know it, I know
I'm doing my best, not to show it, to show it
Whatever it takes to be what I was meant to be, I'm gonna try


I'm over my head, and I know it, I know
I'm doing my best, not to show it, to show it
Whatever it takes to be what I was meant to be, I'm gonna try
Cause I'm living the dream, and I know it, I know it
I'm trying my best, not to blow it, to blow it
And I know everything will be fine
With me, myself and time

I'll find myself in time,

I know I'll find myself in time

SChedUle fOR tHe 1-mOnth-hoLidAY

Yeah! 1 down! 2 more to go... Screw MCQ,, screw OSPE!! lol. 


If i pass my final, I will have the honour to celebrate it with the 1-month-hols. yippie! (can u feel the happiness and anxiety in me?) Hehe. That's why you people have to pray for me. Pray to Allah that I wont have sudden amnesia during the exam.. or suddenly me and Dr Nujaimi switch brains! (he is a Cardiac Surgeon, by the way). Hopefully I don't have to take supplement paper coz I want to be back home :((


Btw I have already planned my schedule for the holidays. Full lah babe! Im gonna be busy the whole month! Busy doing activities that I like (which were all once my hobbies, but not until last July). Coz since that, my whole life had been fully dedicated to mbBs. (Huh, it's a no wonder now why my friends from Pharmacy course dub us 'Majlis Budak-buDak skEMa').

See what it takes to be a good student?

I have to sacrifice most of my hobbies coz the 24 hours that I have daily are all allocated to studying, doing some revision, having study group discussions, doing homeworks that I have been provided with, reading all those piles of lecture notes and reference books that I have bought, doing extra exercises and going through the 'Atlas' every single day. 


Not to mention, there here were too many activities that have been erased off from my diary. Shopping, watching movies, karaoke-ing, hanging out with me buddies, gossip-ping and having mere talks with my friends, and anything that has got nothing to do with  my studies.

Hell yeah, its like I was sentenced to be grounded for life. 

Its sad. 

And pathetic. 

And unfair. 

And YOU ARE SO NAIVE IF YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVED IN WHATEVER CRAPS THAT I'VE JUST SAID.

COZ THERE WERE ALL LIES!

I still do enjoy meself (in fact for the past 10 months, I have seen almost 30 movies, shopped almost 10 shoes and 23 clothes,  karaoke-d with Ilani and Chunn 6 times, gone picnic-ing with my friends twice and in short, my life is still as great as before).

Sorry. and thank you! LOLs.


Anyways, these are the activities that Im planning to do:


1. Continue doing my fanfiction which I stopped at the 3rd chapter long time ago. Well, if you are a faithful follower of my blog, you must have read the entry entitled 'Das Lieben Von Ihnen'. 


2. Girls day outs! (Need to inform them girls that the famous Wani is gonna be back home next week). I wanna karaoke with Asilah, catch any new movies with Izzah and the gang, and eat 'Burger Sedap' with Afiqah. Slurppppp~


3. Wipe off the dust on my German-English dictionaries. I mean, its the time for me to brush up my German (vocabs and grammar and everything) after stopped doing so for months.  I'm pretty sure that it must have got a bit rusty here and there. My problem is that I can read German but can't converse in it. I can hardly make even one short sentence fully in German. :((


4. Clearance stock! Huh? Come again, please. Shopping? Who said anything about shopping? I was talking about clearing all those contents in my house refridgerator. huh? Louder, please.. Throw them away? Who said that I'm gonna throw em all away into the dustbin? Of course what I meant was I wanna EAT them all. The last time I opened my house fridge (which was on last Wednesday), it was fully loaded with 'Kek Lapis Sarawak'! And chocolates.. and so many delicious, diabetes-causing, finger-licking food. Loads of them, I mind you. warghhhh! (Screw my diet programme!) Lol.


5. Pay Ella a visit. Well, she is my only younger sister (the youngest in my family, in fact). She was offered a place in GAMBANG matriculation college, Pahang (which she had already accepted). The registration was today. As usual, my other sisters accompanied my parents to send Ella there. Spoiled brat. Lol. Just kidding :)). Well, its accustomed among Saadon clans. When we wanna send any of the six girls off far from home, the rest will follow to send her (unless if something important comes out). I still remember when my eldest sister went to register to Matriculation of Internation Islamic University of Malaysia (back in 1998), we sent her by van! Mini van, I shall say. My family, Pak Usu's family, Pak Teh, Mak Teh and my nanny all went. I think we could make a world record for that. 15 people in a mini van! (And I wonder if we gave the impression as human-trafficking victims to the other road users at that time). Ha-ha.


Ok, I need to sleep coz its already 11.26 pm. I have to wake up early tomorrow (early=4.30 am) coz I wanna do some quick revision for MQE paper tomorrow. Hoh, very tired and sleepy. Off! 




p/s: Tonight I broke my fast at Nasi Lemak Ayam Kampung. Yummy *drooling awrrrr

Upper Limbs Short Questions

Hello. I was doing some short questions related to Upper Limb (my favourite yawww) when suddenly out came a brilliant idea off my head, which was to SHARE the knowledge with you all. But the rule is that I cant refer to the answers given until I finish doing all. Then, scratch the wrong answers and write down the real, correct, true answers in red. (huh, apa lagi..? paham tak. haha). 


Oh btw, its okey if you dont wanna read it. I don't mind at all. You may close the tab now. huhu.


Still reading this? wow, bagus2. Lets do it!


1. State 3 nerves closely related to humerus.
-Axillary nerve - surgical neck of humerus
-Radial nerve - radial groove
-Ulnar nerve - posterior side of medial epicondyle


2. State the deformity resulting from injury of the following nerves.
-Radial nerve - wrist drop
-Ulnar nerve - ulnar claw hand
-Median Nerve - Ape-like hand
-Thoracic nerve - Winged scapula


3. State the clinical importances of brachial artery
-Blood pressure measurement
-Pulsation Brachial artery


4. State the clinical importance of radial artery and state where it can be felt.
radial artery's pulsation. It can be felt at the anterior lateral part of the wrist. 


5. State the contents of cubital fossa.
-median nerve
-brachial artery
-biceps tendon
-radial artery
should mention 'from medial to lateral'


6. State the branches of the lateral cord
-lateral side root of median nerve
-musculocutaneous nerve
-lateral pectoral nerve.


7. State the branches of medial cord 
-ulnar nerve
-medial root of median nerve
-median pectoral nerve
-median cutaneous nerve of arm
-median cutaneous nerve of forearm


8. State the branches of the posterior cord.
-subscapular nerve (upper and lower).
-thoracodorsal nerve
-axillary nerve
-radial nerve


9. State the boundaries of quadrangular space and state the structures that pass through it.
-bicipital aponeurosis 
-brachial artery and mean cubital nerve.
-teres minor, subscapularis, long head of triceps and surgical neck of humerus.
-axillary nerve and posterior circumflex humeral artery


10. State the muscles of the forearm involved if the ulnar nerve is injured at the elbow.
-flexor carpi ulnaris
-medial half of flexor digitorum profundus


11. State the intrinsic muscles of the hand involved if the ulnar nerve injured at the wrist.
-3rd and 4th lumbricals
-4 dorsal interossei
-4 palmar interossei
-adductor pollicis
-hypothenar muscles


10. State the muscles of the forearm involved if the median nerve injured at the elbow.
-flexor carpi radialis
-flexor pollicis longus.
-lateral half of flexor digitorum profundus


11. State the intrinsic muscles of the hand involved if the median nerve is injured at the wrist.
-Thenar muscles
-1st and 2nd lumbricals

Okeh, this is not good! 


      














     


(running around the room, panicking)         

Wishing Star

Is it really weird to believe that one day u'll get what u want most?


well, I know it depends on what exactly that thing is. But sometimes we human cant stop ourselves from wishing for something that doesn't make sense at all. 


For example when I was a child, I always wished that I wasn't human. Wonder why? because to me (10 years back when I was a kid), human are the most unreliable, annoying, irresponsible creatures one could have ever met. Even animals are (sometimes) way nicer than human. Animals don't abandon their babies like some human do. Animals neither cheat nor backstab their troops/tribes/friends (excuse my choices of word) unlike, again, some human do. Human! the so-called greatest organisms ever on Earth. The ones that Allah grant with brains. pfffttttt wtf. 


Well, I'm not saying that human are ALL bad, evil and disastrous. No, don't ever jump to such conclusion. Plus this all occurred to me when I wasn't matured yet. Now I believe that human are nice. really nice (lie! lie!). My point is, why should I degrade human's honour just because of that some 'black sheep'?

And after all, like it or not, its not for my approval that I was born as a human. Being born as one, I should just live by it! (and later on die ,still, as one too).. lol. Haha. Haha. Haha.


Ok, let's get back to our main issue here. Which is about wishing wishing well~Im not well~U can go to hell~Or else I will yell~aww awww Jell..Jell.. Jell-O..... Haha. That was unnecessary..! yeah, I know.. :))


Well, how about if I wished that all clocks in this world will stop ticking until I finish doing my revision? They all stop ticking not because there are no more batteries left on this effing, small planet. But simply because I need more time to finish my revision. Haihhh.... -_-"


Ok, how about if I wished that I will wake up tomorrow with very smooth skin?! No pimples, no acnes, no scars? wow *_* that would be great! lols.


Sound stupid, huh? Wait till you hear read my next wish... 


I wish Bill Kaulitz will come to Malaysia and I will catch him drunk at a dark alley and bring him back home and we both will become one and live happily ever after (so like Confession of Teenage Drama Queen except the ending part, ayte?) rofl! But hey, what is wrong with having such hope (hope? shouldn't it be imagination?) like that.. :))


Errrr out of idea! But still, I wanna write some more. Think quickly, Wani! (yeah, I was talking to myself. I am Wani.) 


oh! How I wish that I'll have the courage to upload my videos on Youtube! Not that kinda video.! I mean, u know, that video video. Naah.. But singing videos. Yeah.. I love singing. Then all of my videos will get 1,000,000, views each. And nice-to-hear comments (and critics, for sure). Then TOkio Hotel (eh, kenapa diorang lagi? Im so obsessed with them. Haha) will approach to me and we will have duet so many times that I will be the envy for every girls (and not to forget, for every men who have big gay crush on my dear Bill). Awwwwww. 
*I wonder if it will ever happen coz my real intention is so wrong  -_-"




Btw, forgot to share this great news with all of you! I am about to join my 3rd year seniors' band this July (after Im done with my final exams). Will be the lead singer (and bassist, if i can afford a guitar bass, of course). So nerve-wrecking! ayayayay~ Taquito. 


Ok, now I wish that I'll stop blogging and continue doing my revision!
Adios peeps....!! Handle with care. Haha. Just kidding. Just take a very good care of yourselves, keyh?! 

Perkara yang memeningkan aku

1. jerawat kat muke aku da bertambah. faktor: a) tensen nak final exam b) cuaca Ipoh sangat panas. tapi takpe. aku try minum air mineral banyak-banyak in the mean time.


2. kunci kereta and kunci rumah sewa (kat Ipoh) tertinggal kat rumah Muar. Tahniah, Wani. Jadi sekarang nih susah tol tuk aku commute ke mana2. Dobi last week (monday before balek Muar ari tuh) pun tak amek2 lagi. adoyai...


3. kepala aku da berpinar-pinar akibat usaha gigih ku tok abeskan study Physiology dalam mase satu hari. Malam nih nak sambung lagi 8 lectures. Alhamdulillah, tadi sempat habiskan 14 lectures (Thanx to Hidayah for willing to teach me Physio. Love u, babe!).


4. Sepatotnye sekarang nih aku tido. Jadi malam nih leh bangun dengan segarnya tok sambung abeskan Physio. Tapi, tau2 je lah aku nih. Mane mungkin aku duduk diam2 dalam bilik. Tak berfesbuk, bukak TokioHotelRocks. Tak pun blogging lah.. Hobi sampingan. haha.


5. Bateri fon aku hampir flat lah. Tapi malas nak charge coz charger dalam beg kat atas meja Study. nanti2 lah. hehe.


6. aku nak muntah biler tengok nota2 yang melambak tersusun rapi kat atas kepala katil aku nih. banyak giler weyh.... -_-"


7. aku rase kalau aku kene supplement pun cam dah redha jep.. asalkan bukan repeat satu tahun sudah.... coz, entahlah.. macam banayk giler lah tak cover lagi.. uwaaaaa :((


8. aku nak out dah nih. seriously, im going straight to bed after this. Wait, Im already in my bed! Ok, Im going to turn off my laptop straightaway after publishing this. Okeh? Happy? Huhu.


9. Assalamualaikum. Have a nice day ahead. and please pray for me. Wish me good luck in my final exams. Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Im already tachycardic now.

Final-exams syndrome

haha. Im already in my revision week. haha. haha. haha. (I have gone crazy. The evil finals are nearing!)


Today I had two revision classes, pharmacology and microbiology. Both are my top two least favorite subjects. haha. (Sorry Dr Giri, Prof Russ Karim, Prof Awang, Dr Chandana) :(

After class, me, Aida and Shahira had discussion on Biochemistry. We managed to cover 5 lecture notes only. We planned to do another 4 more tonight! Oooooh, hopefully we can make it. 

Btw after the discussion, we all went to Pasar Malam. ok, rephrase. We walked to pasar malam (night market). It was like miles away (honestly I have no freaking idea what the precise number is.but i bet u, its far from my house). Then we bought kebab, coconut drink, keropok lekor and apam balik tebal! loads, huh. Oh ya, forgot to tell you. The reasons why we walked there: to exercise. To burn the fat down. To be slim. To be like Gisele Bundchen (seriously, Wani?). Ha-ha. To be healthy. The only reason why we bought so many food: It was such an agony to look at the food without buying them. ayayay~ Plus, we were gonna walk back home again. So, more fats to be burnt! hahahahahahaha. haha. (shut up, Wani). Ok.


Next week Im going to balek kampung again! So in 2010 April, I had 3 balek kampung trips (Ipoh-Muar) outta 4 weeks. So there'll be only 1 weekend that I'll have to spend in Ipoh. It will be this unlucky weekend! But me and my girls have planned something to do over the boring weekend (aren't u girls supposed to be mugging and studying, Wani?) -_-"


We planned to go to Teluk Batik (beach somewhere in Perak)! Then we can camwhore the whole day there. We wanna bring lotsa sandwiches. But we're not gonna be in bikinis-lah for sure. T_T  And the most important thing is that we are gonna have lotsa fun!! We are going to forget the fact that final exams are another 2 weeks away! We are gonna release our tension. We are going to have some peaceful, enjoyable, quality time together-mether (teehee).


Okay, thanx for reading this. and padan muke kau da abes kan 4 minit dalam hidup kau. alangkah bagus kalau pergi tolong mak siram pokok bunge. dapat pahale. HAHAHAHA *evil laughs. Seriously, if your laughters didn't sound evil at all, laugh again! HAHAHHAHAHAAHA (evil enough? Or did u sound like Santa Claus? Yes, you did sound like Santa.) RE-LAUGH!!!! HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. Ok, mamfush ko lah. Haha. Gila punye budak (that would be me).


P/S: this is what I mean by Final-exams syndrome. Ain't it plain to see? I have gone totally outta my mind. I am crazy. :'(

chocolate cake on the planet Mars

hey du! kleine android..
hey du! auf deinem satelit.

hehe.. :DD

Can i fly to Mars and bake a moist chocolate cake up there? Should I bring my own microwave and aluminium foil (to wrap the cake later)? Or is it possible that I can find a Secret Recipe franchise on the Mars, and just buy one whole of Chocolate Indulgence there? Will the cake taste the same with the one we bake on the planet Earth? Huh.. Only Allah knows.

Btw my grandma was warded for 7 solid days on the April 9th. She was diagnosed to pneumonia. Luckily I was in Muar at that time. So I managed to visit her once. The saddest part was, my sister's wedding was on the April 10th! So, she didn't get to see her own grandchild's big day. But thank God, she's fine now. She had been discharged last week. I love my grandma so much! She is super nice. and caring. and lovely. and generous. and she's the only grandparent that I have now. huhu :(

us, the loud Saadons. 

from left: ella, kak aja, kak intan, kak angah, kak long and me!

k, im out. loads of lecture notes need to be covered before the final exams! pray for me...... 

MOGE2 WANI SAADON LULUS FINAL EXAM PHASE 1A BELIAU... AMEEEEN!!! =)

when I'm stressed out, I blog

time flies so fast. tick tock tick.. oops, 10 months had passed me by already. I still remember the very first day I entered UniKL-RCMP. I hated it so much. It's so effing small. I wanted to experience a normal college life. Which I get to stay in a normal,9-floored hostel. Where I get the chance to meet cute guys while having lunch at the cafe (ayayay~ its so wrong, Wani). =)


When I reminisce my initial intention on why I agreed to enter this college, I would burst into laughters and will continue doing so for 4-5 minutes. Why? Why? and why? Its because I still cant stand the fact that I chose this course over Engineering. How fool I was to actually think that I can do it. If only I knew that it could get this tough, I would have certainly stood by my own decision and wont drag myself here. (And wont end up regretting the past). Sigh.


Sometimes, I think that I have accepted it. That I have already started loving it. And that I have no regrets anymore. But hell no man. When things get rough/tough/ugly, I would gladly blame each and every single factor which influenced me to take this course. Inilah manusia. Tak pernah bersyukur dengan apa yang telah Allah kurniakan. (free preach. amek kau XD) hehe


So I think, I really need to write down my ambitions on a nice, pink manila card., decorate  it with floral motif and put it up against my bedroom's wall. So that each time my eyes rest upon it, it will register straight to my medulla oblongata. So that I won't forget my ambitions even for a split second every single day I live. So that whenever I face a problem regarding to my studies, I will not feel so down and will never consider dropping out as one of the solutions that I could come out with. Huhu =(


Haha I just realized that I always talk stuff like this over my blog. Is that lame? ha-ha. I don't care. Who asked u to read this? Who asked u to silently follow my blog? It wasn't me, right? hahahahahhahaha XD


p/s: my HIGO end-of-module exam will end this evening! I just soooooo can't wait to be home again. 


btw last night I had two sweet dreams. 
First, I dreamt of Bill Kaulitz!! He sang for me yaww~ awww, masyhuknye! 
Second dream was about (shouldn't be telling you the details. In case my bro-in-law, abg scott read this, I'll be dead in no time). hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha XD

1stly, 2ndly, trdly n lastly

im actually so sleepy, but still, i cant sleep.

there are daym so many things swirling in my mind right now,

exciting my neuron to work harder..,, continuosly.

making my state of mind has finally got the best of me.

seriously, im confused.


1stly:
it occured to me this evening, what if i cant actually do it any longer..?

ya i know..,, if i do pass my final exams (insyaAllah, ameen!) which start on the 10th of may, 

then, i'll continue to 2nd year.

it means that there are gonna be loads more stuff to be bluetooth-ed to my brain.

n mind u people, the 2nd-year-final-exams include all those stuff that we have learnt during both 1st n 2nd years. 
aint that disturbing? yeah, very disturbing..
n the career itself scares me to death.
bcoz its tough.
undeniably tough.
was i really born to become what-im-trying-to-pursue-now?
i mean, do i have what it takes to become one?
ouh. 


2ndly:
i wished april will never show up.
n dont ask me why.
thank u.


3rdly:
why am i still awake?!!!
im supposed to be in my wonderland right now.....
my brain deserves to have some rest.
so does my body...
n my eyes.
somebody, plissss hypnotize me to sleep....
-,-


lastly:
i just wanna trouble myself.
i dont wanna take things lightly.
i wanna feel like im powerful over something.
that im in-charged.
that im needed
for something
anything
and everything.
think ive gone crazy.....
already????!!! (baru belajar 7 bulan daaaaa.. wat malu kaum je bai)


k, mau sign out... 
ok..... papai! <3

aku takot.

wah, diam tak diam da 7 bulan aku belajar kat rcmp..

diam tak diam da 4 module kitorang abes daripada 5 yg kene belajar..,,

1. foundation of medical sciences
2. muskulo-skeletal
3. introductory to clinical exposure
4. cardiovascular and respiratory systems
5. haematology, immunology, genetics n oncology.

diam tak diam da 4 assessments yg aku amek (result? sile jgn tanye). haha

diam tak diam, da banyak movie yg aku tgk bersame teman2 di rcmp..

diam tak diam, lagi 2 bulan lebih je weh FINAL EXAM  aku.. 10th of May. tarikh keramat. da la 2-4 ay aku mau gi swk. kirenye a week later tu, aku kene ngadap soklan2 samseng yg tahap dewa senangnye.. huahua. apekah sempat aku mau meng-cover sume? physiology, anatomy, biochemistry, patology, pharmacology, microbiology, ms, histology n tu je kot. oh people, pray for me plisss.. i dun wanna sit for the supplement paper,., apatah lagi kalau kene repeat satu taun. kalau tak, aku quit je laa..,, then jual cd yoga kat muar.. gile laku. badan pun jadi hot n spicy pastu. hihi :)

k, nak study............. out dulu ya bapak2, ibu2...

p/s- aku wat bread crumbs pagi tadi!!!! credits to shera n aida sbb ajar aku.. huhu

sembang-sembang kopi (ape sesuai??)

wo, da lame gak aku tak post entry. susah la module CVS ni. bukannye sbb ape, tapi coz aku tak bawak laptop ke ipoh ni.. da la tau xde laptop, gi beli printer. agak mangang di situ, kan?? hehe. tapi kepayahan selama sebulan ni mmg betul2 menyayatkan ati aku la. da la nak revise malam2 pun susah, then nak fesbuk, blogging, tokiohotel-ing, patah lagi.. haram jadah.. :(  huaaaaaa... tapi takpe, module CVS tinggal lagi 2 minggu je. then cuti seminggu!! ya allah, tak sabar nye nak balek. 6 minggu weyh aku tak balek muar.. giler pecah rekod. dgn macam2 event yg (sekali lagi) menyayatkan ati aku terjadi selama 6 minggu ni. tak sangke aku tak kene tahan kat wad 24. mane tau, i kene bipolar ke, schizo ke, ape ke... x_x

mmmm, semalam society aku baru adekan JumbleSale. giler da tercabot kaki aku malam tadi.. walaupun aku n committee members yg len da tak dapat study almost a week bcoz of it, kami tak kesah.. coz we managed to collect 1k, u noe.. 1k. hehe. walaubagaimanapun (pn norizan guru bm darjah 6 aku pasti berbangge dgn penggunaan ayat ini), kami tak dapat apa2 keuntungan dari segi material. kerana kutipan2 yg kami dapat itu akan digunakan untuk menaja team debat UniKL-RCMP dan untuk charity. seriously?? yeaah, seriously.

oh, that day i watched Spy NExt Door and THe Toothfairy. giler bessss.. oooo yeahh (the rock suke cakap). saper yg tak tgk 'The toothfairy' jgn beranganlah korang dapat paham nape aku cakap ooo yeaahh.. hahaha (evil laughs)..

minggu ni aku balek kajang. saper2 yg berminat nak jupe aku, siler tunggu di perhentian pudu pada jam sekitar 3-4pm, jumaat ni, bersamaan ngan 29 jan.. (ceh, budget cam ade secret admirer/fanatic fan je. Wani, get back to reality) haha. aku nak tido uma Shera. nak makan sate kajang! n sorry mama, coz wani tak dapat balek muar minggu ni... mane la wani nak tau yg mama akan stay kat kak ja's til this friday n seterusnye dapat menjemput wani di pudu dan seterusnye balek ke muar bersama2.... plus, i promised to shera oredi that i'll cum over to hers.. n spend my weekend there. tapi relaksla babe (hehe) kan wani cuti lagi 2 minggu.. cuti chinese new year!!

eh!!! hell no.... i just remembered that i hv a debate competition on the 19th-21st feb.. it means that my 1-week-hols will be like only 4-days-hols.. n minus ari2 nak wat prektis, jadi 2 ari je..??? oh tidak!!! sorry maaaa!! forgot to tell u this when u called me just now.. will call u tonite eh. huuuuu,, aku nak balek muarr!!! aku homesickkkkkk.... wanna b home.. wana sleep on my bed. i mean, MY bed! not mr lee's.. wanna hv breakfast with my family... wanna hv a fight wit ella,, wanna mengacau2 erfan (my nephew), wanna pow secret recipe, wanna watch movies with my family, wanna hear my mom babbling when im still on my bed at 12 noon... huwaaaaaaaaa!!! most importantly, wanna b hundred miles away from him..... sheet. (giler canggih ejaan aku). huhu..

k la, aku sebenarnye de byk lagi nak type, tapi da takde mood da ni... nyampah nyerrrr! grrrrr..
aku nak mandi, smyg asar n smyg maghrib n out nak bukak pose. then nak sidai baju, print out nota n wat ILA!!!!!!! omg, byk nye keje.. malas lak nak makan luar, tapau je leh tak??  (-,-)

p/s: is it possible kalau kite apply nak wat housemanship kat Sabah tapi kerajaan disapprove n antar kite ke hospital berdekatan ngan uma parents...??? sangat mustahil kan? it wud b such a great miracle la kalau terjadi pun, kan.... huhhhhhhh x_x

roomies

its a normal, boring Saturday. plus, my roomies are not home. can u just imagine how bored i am right here right now? shittake. neways, let's look at both (-)ve and (+)ve sides of being home alone.

(-)ve side

1. im such a talkative person. seriously, having no company to talk to makes me crazy. guess what i did in the shower this morning? oh, no guessing. i talked to myself in the mirror! i think i did it for 15 minutes or so. oh, no. 
2. i wont study! those two roomies of mine always sit at their study tables, open up any medical books, and read them. and at that precise moment, guess what i would be doing? oh, no guessing again. i would laze around, sit on my bed, turn on my laptop, open RealPlayer, play all Tokio Hotel's songs, and facebook! but then, i would get jealous of them two studying and quickly, i will go to my study table, take my lecture notes or any books, go back to my bed, and study. omg. they really are the revision-stimulators to me..

not-so-(+)ve side

1. i can laze around the whole day! yippie!
2. i can turn on the RealPlayer damn loudly. hoho.

but i think, the (-)ve side wins. roomies, i miss u guys!!!!!

sigh.